Having no formal songwriting criteria or method, I’m still surprised I have as many coherent(or semi-coherent) pieces of music as I do today. There really aren’t any schools for this discipline. Â I’ve managed to insert myself into a couple of really amazing songwriting communities. Â But they don’t have syllabi.
So, how is it that I have the modest library of material that I do?
There are songs that I have retired (or at least temporarily so). Â There are songs that I still play from years ago. Â There are the freshly finished song that I still hum in my head at work.
Then there are the half songs, poems, one-liners and curious words scattered about in journals and folders all over my car, apartment, closet…etc. Â There are even some snippets of sound bites recorded in my cell phone. Â I know they’re in there, I just have to find them.
Where did they all come from?
I have thoughts all the time of random (even crazy) things. Â What is the difference between being inspired enough to write something down and careless enough to let it dissipate into the ether?
I remember waking up at all odd hours of the night, jumping out of bed to find a paper and pen and then not being able to get back to sleep because I’m so buzzed about my sudden discovery.
Now, I wake up roll over lazily to the pen and journal stacked on my window sill and scribble whatever woke me up down without even turning on the lamp. Â Pass out.
My muse is definitely sleeping. Â I most certainly have to poke her with a stick to get her to pay attention. In fact, sometimes it’s as though our roles are reversed.
Does that sound odd? Â It certainly feels odd.
It’s like we’re WELL past our honeymoon phase and on to the “dishes, Dear” portion of our time together. Â I remember writing furiously when I first started. Â It was like everything I experienced was slipping into my pen in some form of written inspiration.
Lately I’ve been going to see performances of every type to try to get her to pay attention. Â Good friends who are also musicians are always great for the creative juju. Â Seeing people I very strongly admire (Brandi Carlile, Ani DiFranco, etc.) give me something to strive for. Â A “mark” if you will.
Sometimes she perks up. Â We share a smile and write something down (like old times).
Travel does wonders. I often come back from a short trip and play my guitar until I pass out.
Imagine how much we could accomplish with an extended vacation?!
I guess I can’t blame her really.
I have a fairly stimulating day job. Â She doesn’t.
I believe we still have something special and I have no plans to quit anytime soon.
I’ll keep working on the little things that seem to make her happy.
Cause when she’s happy, my whole world sings.